Almost four years ago, a health crisis happened in my life and with it came a health detour. As I write this I am significantly overweight…for me. Having once been a competitive athlete, this has been a tough pill to swallow. For so much of my life I placed a huge part of my worth and identity in my athleticism and physical appearance. If I’m honest, I still place stock in it, but it has been a slow unraveling as I discover the steadfast truth that I am loved by the people who matter the most regardless of my size. While I am still loved, I am not free. I am not free at this weight and the pain of staying here is too much for me, so I must make a change. I have been trying the last few years, but have not made much progress….I still feel imprisoned.
The 30th of this month marks a new journey for me. I am beginning a new approach to my health and have invited a health coach to help me in my process. The last week has been decorated by a lot of chaotic eating as I pressure myself to finally get it right once I start this new approach to my health. I’ve visited fast food chains and eaten more food than my stomach has room for. The great thing about my new approach is it is rooted in grace and requires I be kind to myself.
Today, I came up with a series of questions I want to ask myself throughout each day as a new measure of success (step away scale!). Here they are:
1) Is my heart still beating
I’m writing this so the answer is yes. God still has breath in my lungs for a good and beautiful reason. I am present. I am here and that is a win.
2) Did I move my body and enjoy it?
I’m reminding myself to view moving my body as an act of celebration, not as a form of punishment. Enjoying my form of physical activity is of utmost importance.
3) Did I listen to and obey my hunger/satisfaction?
Am I in-tune with my natural, God-given signals of hunger and fullness? Am I eating foods I enjoy? Am I trusting my body and listening to what it is saying?
4) Did I have a time of solitude and relaxation?
This is key. Did I set aside intentional time to be still before God to reach his word and talk to Him?
5) Am I speaking kindly to myself?
Am I being a friend or foe to myself? To avoid self-sabotage it is vital that I season the words I use with myself with kindness and gentleness.
6) Am I celebrating my wins?
Am I consciously celebrating and throwing a mini party every time I have a victory? Building upon small successes creates momentum and stamina for the journey ahead.
Where are you on your health journey? Are you encouraged by this new way of measuring success?